Do you ever start reading a bible passage and then when you realise what it's about, you wish you had accidentally skipped that bit because it mucks up your plans?
Last night I lay awake thinking about the fun things I could maybe squeeze in before work. It was a tiring weekend, I deserve a little treat. Hmmm JB HI-FI's sale finishes today. Gee, 20% off all cd's. I wonder what sweet 80's thrash metal album I could get cheap...Kreator? Sadus? Slayer? I was excited.
Then in my morning reading I was up to Luke 12, and the parable of the rich fool. And I started reading I thought, oh great, I can smell conviction coming on. And sure enough--
Watch out! Be on your guard against all kinds of greed; a man's life does not consist in the abundance of his possessions(v.15)
It's not that buying cd's is wrong. It's not necessarily greedy. But I knew that at this point, on this morning, the way I was thinking, yes, it was wrong for me. It was greed. I wanted it to make me feel happy. That whole 'I deserve it' line of thinking is a recipe for disaster.
I have about ten kickin' thrash albums sitting right here at work-- listen to them, and enjoy them, without thinking more, more, more! Want what you have, don't have what you want.