I was non-plussed for the first time about going to my session yesterday. I have felt like I have been treading water, slowly sinking, and I was not eager to go in, just to get my hopes up again--knowing there would be the inevitable decline as soon as I left.
But, really, it has been a week of learning. All my hope has been pinned on this, making it a complete emotional roller coaster ride. But really my hope needs to be wholly in God. He is the only one that can give me what I need-- in this case endurance to carry on and just plug away.
This all may sound very negative, but I think I am gradually getting to a better place, where the highs and lows will be less polarised.
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