Huldra Forsvant (Theodor Kittelsen)

Huldra Forsvant (Theodor Kittelsen)
Huldra Forsvant (Theodor Kittelsen)

Saturday, April 11, 2009

Speech Diary- Where To Now..

My final session the other day was good. I spoke to the main therapist about the way forward from here. We decided it would be best to continue on with monthly visits, and for me to get into a local support group as well.

She said something that I knew already, but that was pretty hard to hear. She said "This is never going to be real easy for you, Ben". But still, as long as there is some kind of path forward that I can try and work on, I won't give up. And as long as I am moving in the right direction, I can cope with the steps forward being small.

She also said that she was concerned about my level of anxiety. She reckoned that this is having a big impact on me, and will impact the way I try to go forward with my speech. She suggested I put my name down to try this new program that is in it's experimental stages still. It is a thing that is done purely online, over a period of time, and that it addresses this link between stuttering and anxiety. One does not cause the other, but they both feed off each other, making the problem worse.

So anyway, I feel happy enough that I will continue monthly sessions, and that there are a few more avenues to explore at the same time. I also feel a sense of satisfaction that I've completed this course.


Anonymous said...

Compared to how things were couple of months ago, I personally think you've made a huge step forward already. I guess alot has to do with your expectations though...Just saying that small steps you are making are not as small as you think. Many prayers in your struggles, Ben. All the best. AY

Ben McLaughlin said...

Thanks, AY. Yes, perspective is hard..