Silent, But Not Silent
3 When I kept silent,
my bones wasted away
through my groaning all day long
This verse seems strange. It sounds like the psalmist is contradicting himself; he says he kept silent, but it's hardly silence if he was 'groaning all day long'.
But I think the silence is a lack of prayer; not bringing his troubles to God, not repenting of his sin, not calling out to God for help.
Instead he just groans away, sorry for himself, making a lot of noise, but in no particular direction. A lot of anguish and complaint, but to no helpful end.
This really strikes a chord with me, as this is exactly what I am prone to do when things get hard. I whinge, I moan, I sulk, I curse, I swear, I get bitter, I get anxious.
But I don't pray. I keep tight-lipped with arms crossed, like a sulky toddler, before the One person who can actually help me.