A Change Is Gonna Come

While the past week has been really productive in a lot of ways, the thing that really fell by the wayside was my relationship with God. Bible reading and praying kind of flew out the window, and I've really felt the consequences of that. My heart has been very hard, and I felt like I was shutting God out of things, rebelling and just wanting to deal with everything myself, in my own way.

Thankfully I am in a bit of a different place now, on the final afternoon of my holidays. Having really reached a head last night after spiralling down to some pretty dark depths, I felt a change in church today. I finally felt repentant, and humbled, and just wanted to hand back the reigns.

No good whatsoever comes of me taking control of my life, and I realise that today, afresh, for the millionth time since becoming a Christian all those years ago.