For some reason, I never seem to be able to get into what my 'peer group' at church seems to be into. Something inside me rebels, and I don't want any part of it.
When I was about twenty, all that my friends ever wanted to do was rock-climbing. It's Saturday, let's go to some cliff in the bush and try and scale it. It's Friday night, let's go to the indoor climbing place and try to climb up a wall.
Oh gosh, can we?
I'd try really hard, really I would. I'd tag along, and give it a little go. I'd get about a metre off the ground, and in a whirl of vertigo squeak out something like 'I really need to get down now please'. And then I'd sit and watch in the hot sun, shooing away flies for the next three hours.
Next Saturday comes, sorry I'd dearly love to join you but I'm washing my hair.
And now, a decade on, it seems that bikes (of the pedalling variety) are the new equivalent among my Christian friends. Join a conversation, they're probably talking about bikes. Ask them what they are doing on the weekend? Most likely something involving bikes.
Now, don't be mad. I am not passing judgement on either of these pursuits. They are good pursuits. Climbing stuff is good. Riding bikes is good.
But I suppose at the heart of this post is a question- is there some psychological flaw in me that makes me want to run a mile from these things and not get involved? Is there a subconscious stubbornness that makes my eyes glaze over at the very mention of such things? Why is it, that when a group of my friends like something, my knee-jerk reaction is to run in the opposite direction?
Why is it that if they said 'hey, let's go rally driving' I'd want to go and write poetry and paint my nails, but conversely if they said 'hey, let's go listen to mellow acoustic music in a cafe', I'd want to go out pig shooting with a beer in my hand?
Why, how and when did I become so reactionary? Why do I almost want to be the odd man out?
Well, as you can see, a small joke post has turned into a long serious and soul-bearing one. But I would be interested to hear your thoughts. Even if you ride bikes.